Written by Annamária ©


25 December 2011

merry christmas!

Merry christmas to you all guys!!
all I feel about this christmas that it sucks
Im sorry it's just so miserable for me now, you know why
I hope you have a great one
(last year)

23 December 2011

feel grinch-y

Ahh dears
did some christmas shopping today but still not finished yet
I feel grinch-y, hate this christmas
cant go home and
have to work in NIGHTshift on the 24th, and dayshifts on the 25th and 26th
really sucks
You know I miss so much my family, and I miss a few ones who's supposed to be still here...

16 December 2011


Too early...
omg 1 week and it's christmas...havent even noticed.
still not in the mood, actually I'll work through christmas and new years eve
I want snow!!!!can you hear me english weather? Im fed up with rain I want snow!!!

14 December 2011


Boys and girls
here again
sorry for this interruption, weird days
hard days........

I feel terribly down
I'll be back tomorrow and talk to you, trying to update daily again
are you ok? tell me something nice pls

22 November 2011

jump jump

yesterday's night was partytime
you know guys, we work through the weekend so monday is the saturday for us
I was dancing A LOT to overplayed hits like Badman Riddim but it was fun tho was pretty drunk so... laughing and dancing till sweating, I felt freedom
I really needed this dance-dose, just forgeting about all my misery
needed to empty my mind and release my body
but Ive also suffered
still suffering
cant tell you why now
stupid situations, trouble, sluts

today, 6.01 pm, bbc news
I'm still in my pyjamas, watching tv and eating fruits
relaxing, forgeting about all my foolish acts
in the afternoon watched Operation Petticoat on channel 4 from 1959 with Cary Grant and Tony Curtis
it was fucking hilarious! I laughed a lot!
ah time to get off bed I guess

20 November 2011

staying at home

I'm ill, got cold AGAIN, really can't believe. I had to blow my nose at work in every 5 minutes, so annoying
it's adult weekend, what means thousands of horny and drunk fellas and chicks
How pathetic the way as all these females are desperately trying to get a fuck
wearing t-shirts like:
I love to suck
I love dick milk
I love 1 night stands
Fucking hell. they're so cheap...
yesterday's ill face, couldn't go out *whining*
trying to get well, eating banana and vitamin C
Monday night, come fast! I'll dance


got 2 uniforms, work 6 days a week = means 3 laundry days a week.... god, where's the logic?
more uniforms or a personal washing mashine, right? that's logic

17 November 2011

the silver ball

after this unintended break, I'm back!!
did you miss me guys? not really, yeah
weird times I live through, weird and unusual feeling's circulating in my mind and heart
I've got a lot to tell, full of unexplainable feelings
I need help

I've been busy with work and oppressive thoughts but anyway I've spent 2 days in Bristol, spent all my money on clothes, aaaah
later later

17 October 2011


I AM SOOOO HAPPY!! Can't believe guys!

12 October 2011

11 October 2011

big girl

So first of all, here's a little memory from the station of West Somerset Railway. More and more pictures coming soon about the amazing south-west English countryside, I promise. At least a part of that. Oh guys I got too much to tell. Actually first in my life I love the place where I work. Because of the team. So many nice and funny people.

Today, one of the nice English boys put in the Mika album Life in Cartoon Motion at work, I've heard these songs like Big Girl and Grace Kelly and Lollipop and they totally made my day. Listening to Mika whole day long and I feel happy. It's even happy to say it out loud. I know I'm old and I shouldn't be here by now, and I shoulda work harder on my enormous dreams, but I don't care today. I just dance and smile.

10 October 2011

hello hello hello

Hello kids, ah I'm so happy to blog again, been a while. We've moved to England about two weeks ago and you know, all the to-dos, work and getting internet kept me away from my precious blog. Currently we live in Minehead, Somerset and are working at Butlins. If you're an English darling, sure you know what I'm talking about. For now saving money to the moving to London and getting acquainted with the culture. I like to be here. Anyway it's such a beautiful countryside and a completly amazing seaside with my new favourite animal, a lot of seagulls. Hehe. So here we are.

More pictures coming!

21 September 2011

last moments

I'll miss my mother's garden, the scene of morning and after lunch coffees, long burning cigarettes and shooting ideas. How can be the fact of leaving so aching, if I had waited this moment for years?

20 September 2011

outside seclusion

2005 winter

getting crazy

3 days left till leaving home. Painful and liberating at the same time. Packing, administration to-dos, more packing, some webcam madness, packing. So excited!
Oh yes, I've changed my name. Opinions?
It's conceivable that I'll do it again, I'm looking for a cool stage name, so trying, jah.

19 September 2011

the story behind an obsession

Hong Kong 1997. For a year when I go to second hand shops, I obsessively look for white t-shirts with some caption on them. T-shirts which probably were free at an event or festival accordingly were underestimated and thrown off.

My favorite part: the label. HAPY. It should be a patch so I could sew up. Maybe I will anyway.
I hunt for other people's worthless memories - pieces which make me thinking about unknown stories, unfulfilled dreams. I need fumbling in stranger's soul. I'm an observer.

P.S.: Does anyone know the name of the game on it??

down by the water

Abra macabre.
Best of all.
Soul ripping.
Fishes at Tapolca

18 September 2011


Plain, clean and simple. The words that are circulating in my mind for a long while. Wearing jeans and white t-shirt and unique shoes. How exciting to be interesting with simplicity. Clear-out lines with a little spice. You know.
Forget about exaggeration, anyway I do. I know Helena isn't noted for her bald style but this outfit of hers made me extremly excited about looking like this. Mad face, mad hair, mad eyes, quiet clothes. The mix I'm longing for.
A zipped collar, a white Polly t-shirt with bob hair, or nine yin-yang tattoos with some shell-shaped plastics. Being szép (the hungarian word for beautiful) without unnecessary trash - just severely.
I wish putting flowers into milk. I wish for a beautiful little house in Montana or some place like heaven. I wish to live beautiful.

15 September 2011


My dad's flash from the 1980s what you must to plug in with 3 meters cabel, oldskool really. It belongs to a Zenit camera. Also we have old, rare type reels, developing set and stuffs and an Agfacolor plastic bag... uhlala!

no rendezvous for a while


12 September 2011

counting days down

4 and a half days without internet = heaven

- new empty glasses which I'll never wear I guess
- favorite cactuses and mugs
- eating raisin